I am SO In Love

You know the feeling.......You look in their eyes and you melt into a puddle on the floor...The way they touch your face and you feel butterflies.....when your eyes meet and you both start to laugh.......when they tell you that they love you all on their own with out any prompting......I Am So In LOVE!!!


This morning when I dropped Selamnesh off at daycare. I couldn't have been more in love!! I was running an hour behind. Why?? Because I just didn't want to leave her. You know the feeling when you have a new love and you just want to be together all the time??? It was a typical morning. I sitting at the Breakfast bar, she sitting in her big girl chair next to me. Both of us eating our peanut butter sandwiches. Our eyes would meet and one of us would give the other a bite from our sandwich. And we would both giggle...... by the time we were both done eating she had peanut butter on her clothes, in her hair, and all over her fingers. She would give me the finger that had the glop of peanut butter on it and I would act like a monster and chomp it off. As I clean the peanut butter from between her fingers and around her face I sing a song about what I'm doing....under your chin, on your neck, this cheek then that cheek, naming and counting each finger, making sure she still has them all. We laugh......Ahhhhhh I am so in love.... We finally head out the door. And arrive at the daycare one and a half blocks from our house. We are singing and dancing our way through to her room. They all know that I am NUTS!!! No other parents sing or dance when they drop their kids off.

I know, I watch them the same way they watch me!!!!

We burst into the room as I proclaim. "No one loves their children as much as I love mine!!!" I look at one of my favorite little girls Selamnesh plays with and I tell her, "Your mommy loves you, but not as much as I love my little girl" The daycare teacher looks shocked. Shock factor is what I do best. My best friends know that about me. And love me anyway!! We take off our coat and the same little girl comes up to me. I scoop her up, look her in the eyes, and call her by name and say I love you!! I wasn't sure she had ever heard it..... Selamnesh has said I love you for a long time now. I think I say the words I love you to her more than any other phrase. I set her down and Selamnesh would want up. I squat down and hold them both on my lap. Giving them both a squeeze and tell them again how much I love them both. Selamnesh says "Ahh wub ohh" Repeatedly this little girl would come and every time I would tell her I love her. Finally after the 10th time, she repeated it back.

I watch people drop their kids off, It takes me a long time to drop her off. She is fine, it's me....... They take off their child's coat. Say hello to the teacher, and say "I'll see you later" most of the time not even that.....then give them a quick wave and they are out the door.

I tell every one that I love them. My children, their friends, my friends, their kids. But when I say it I mean it!!! I don't use "I love you" as a salutation. So often, my family or friends will end a conversation on the phone with an "I love you." Most of the time I say,"yah love you". But it's really meaning less. I will usually say their name and I love you. I want to know that I mean it every time.

Lauren is 16 years old. She isn't as affectionate as Tristan. But when I drop her off at school every day, I rub her arm or touch her leg, she hates it every time, but I don't care!!! I look her in the eyes and tell her I love her, and ask for a kiss. Tristan is a little easier with the affection. I still get teary eyed when I drop them off at school like the first day of kindergarten. Now I only have 2 more years of dropping Lauren off. Wow!! Where does the time go??

How can I be so in love with my children?? My friends don't even understand. I would guess that most parents don't mind getting a breather as I have heard them say, when they let their kids go to friends houses. I hate it!!! Some think that I don't let my kids go to friends houses, or to the mall with friends because I fear for their safety or I don't trust them. I trust my children, I just don't trust any one elses!! But in reality, I would rather go with them, or have their friends over at our house. I love being with my children!!! Being single for so many years I have taken a lot of vacations with friends. And I honestly have a better time with my children than I do a friend. I enjoy motherhood so much now at 39 years old.

Children are a gift from God. and I am SO Blessed!!!

So where does this leave me....... thankful...... My children are good kids, I don't think that it is any mystery that the more time you spend with your children the more they pick up from you. You might think you love your children, but not as much as I love mine!!!